In a funk

I can't explain it but I am once again in my funk. It happens 2-3 times a year. I swear I may just start crying today. It is like my own little pity party except I don't even want to be around me. I feel fat, ugly, useless and unloved. I know I am loved and needed and fat and maybe even ugly but the last 2 things don't generally get me this upset.

I try so hard to eat and exercise...ok no I guess I don't. I get mad, bored or upset and I eat. I do try to exercise but I'll be honest, many nights I want to sit and watch tv and relax. I am up at 430am, leave the house by 630am, get home at 330pm, play w/JD, make dinner, clean up a bit and J gets home at 630. We eat dinner, I bathe the baby, clean up the kitchen, make lunches and then put JD to bed. It is then 8pm and I am tired. I don't want to exercise. I need to work on this. But I'm tired!!!

I ate my cheerios and now some yahoo I work with brought in Krispy Kreme donuts...HELLO! Have you seen the size of your co-workers asses? No we do not need any donuts! Sure put them next to the obese diabetic girl that is bored and wants to eat them. Thanks asshole!

Told you I wasn't in a very good mood...